I need to get over this

It has only been two days.  I am impatient.  I want to be over this NOW.  I am sick of hurting and missing him.  I want my 18 years back.  I want him sitting on the floor looking up at me, and then jumping on the couch next to me, expecting a head rub.  I just want him back and I can't have him.  I so want to be done with this.  I don't want to hurt anymore.  God, please make it stop.